Free Write/ Week of 10/27/2014 / Lost in My Head

It would not suit my soul for this week to not be better than the last

I’m almost sure it will be more peaceful, for I have the power to make things go in that direction

Also,

I hope your week is better than your last and that your movements take you forwards not backwards

I, for one, need a break away from it all.

I feel over exposed when in reality I’m still just developing

Just developing; still changing

I am ever changing

Therefore I have the power to make peace.

Point blank.

In this weeks motives and goals I plan to sleep every night without the feeling that it is necessary to put the world away but instead simply wanting to get a good nights rest.

To not enter the realm of my dreams with these demons on my mind

But to sleep with a harmonious mind ready to bask in my dreams as my body is still

Because at the end of your day – what you dream is what you subconsciously think.

To put demons in my own definition – Some things I’m talking about are —

  • The way I demean or lower my own dignity and lead myself into believing I am not great enough for a certain area of life
  • The people around me who love me in the ‘wrong’ way because it isn’t love it’s hate
  • The other portion of people around me in which I love but cannot trust because my dreams won’t allow me to
  • Keeping up with the socially constructed life I was brought into involuntarily

I believe these demons can be erased in the name of faith

and the reminder that worrying is a waste of feeling.

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One thought on “Free Write/ Week of 10/27/2014 / Lost in My Head

  1. “Worrying is a waste of feeling.” You have enlightened me in that regard. Worrying IS a waste of feeling, and who wants to waste their ability to feel. As a writer, I can’t afford to. Hence, from this point forward, I’ll remind myself to not worry.

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